Its been a week since me and my bf had a fight. . i admit that sometimes i overreacted. Paranoid as he always say. . Right now i don't know what do. i really miss him so much :( we haven't talked yet. I just hope that everything will be ok.
I try to keep myself busy. Reading all the books that i've kept for some time because I'm too busy these past few months having my training. I don't even have time to read them before.
I will be joining a cruise on september. Work as usual. I just hope me & my bf will settle our problems before i go. I can't think normally. . i don't know if this is his way of saying goodbye to me, of not talking to me, not showing up, even for a single glance.. Coz I'm leaving soon. I don't know, i just really don't know what he's been thinking right now. :(
All I know is that i promised him that i will always be there for him. to love him. And i'm doing a big sacrifice of being away with him. Because i want to be something. Someone that his family would be proud about me. I will work on board to earn a living. For us.
I don't want to leave. And i don't want him to leave me. I can't go on without him. :(
He's my life, my love, my friend, my boyfriend. My everything. :(
